It's been awhile Since I could Hold my head up high it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand On my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you Everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem And consequences that were rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I could say That I wasn't addicted It's been awhile Since I could say I loved myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and Fucked things up Just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit Seems to disappear When I'm with you Everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that were rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Again... Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile Since I could Look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said, "I'm sorry" And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way The candles light your face And it's been awhile But I can still remember Just the way you taste Everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me And it's been awhile Since I could Hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I said, "I'm sorry"